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Goodbye 2012

30 Dec

As 2012 is winding to a close, I feel like it’s time to recap the year. 2012 brought with it some highs and some of my all time lowest lows. I learned this year that emotionally exhausted is a state of mind and so is useless, butter and angry. I learned that crying yourself to sleep doesn’t always make things better but sometimes it needs to be done and it isn’t a sign of weakness it is just pure exhaustion and frustration and most times you really do feel better when you just let it go. On the flip side of all that… I have also realized that, strong, forgiving and overcoming are also a state of mind and much more pleasant one at that.

My music taste has bounced around with my moods like crazy and my ipod is definitely a constant for me and really one of the things that I don’t think I would want to live without. I have read new books, I have watched new movies and I’ve realized little things about you do change as time goes on… and if you don’t try to embrace them you can never really become the person you are meant to be. For example, I love romantic comedies and feel good movies and I always will… but a little action and horror aren’t too bad either. My love for the Dallas Cowboys has not changed though… I realized this year watching fans from other teams that it’s not about winning or losing, a true fan is a fan even when your team plain old sucks and that is what it’s all about, that is supporting the team. It’s support in a time of happy or sad… I think we should all take that into consideration when supporting something or someone, it’s doesn’t matter if they are good or suck, you just have to do support them unconditionally because that is what it is all about.

I learned this year that fairy tales don’t come true like in the books. That having a check list of what you’re looking for in someone or having an ideal of who you want them to be, what you want them to say, how you want them to act… is only going to let you down in the end. I have let go of this ideal this year… as it’s coming to a close I am letting the walls that I have up about this type of thing go with it, because I have to write my own fairy tale in life and I can’t live it or write it like everyone else is writing there’s and honestly, I have never fit into the mold that everyone else lives into, so there is no sense in trying to fit in when I was born to stand out and I will write my own fairy tale and it will be amazing…someday, when it’s time and when I’m ready.

I’ve learned the true meaning of friendship this year and that it is the person who is still standing with you even on your darkest day and that for me… that person is my mom. I learned that some people I thought were my real friends and that were always going to be there are the people that drop you the hardest and the fastest and it hurts the most. Put effort into your friendships, that is what I learned… if you have a friendship that is worth your effort, don’t let it go… but on the note… know when it’s time to let go. I have learned this year that it is time for me to let go of a lot of my relationships… if they are true ones they will come back just as strong as ever and if they aren’t, then letting them go and letting go of the hurt is definitely the right decision.

Working out has become my down fall for a mood boost and I’m thankful for the gym and my ability to be active…that is something I never though I’d say…

Resolutions… everyone always makes resolutions for the new year right? losing weight.. getting fit.. quitting smoking.. all sound familiar? the truth is for me… I’ve never believed in resolutions. I have always felt they were putting too pressure on yourself and that they were just a reason to feel like a failure because sometimes you have to do things in steps… so I have never had one. However this year I have a resolution. It is to be happy. It is to find the things that make me happy and figure out who that person is again. It is to let the others who influence my happiness not bother me and to let no one alter my mood without my permission. I am going to find the reasons that make me happy… that’s what I wanted to do with this blog…and I am going to try to come up with 1000 reasons in the next year..that is quite the task but I feel like I can do it because there are so many reasons in my life to be happy, little or big and I think we all could use a reminder of the reasons. I’m going to try to write my bucket list too.. but I’m going to focus more on my reasons and I hope you all can join me along the year and maybe help when I get stuck.

So I’ve survived 2012 even though at times it was rocky, even the Mayans said it would be, and I’m looking forward to welcoming 2013 into my life along with all the new challenges, trails and emotions that it is bound to bring my way. I don’t know about you but I’m hoping 2013 is my year. The year where I can finally say “this year was amazing, and I can’t wait for next year” I’m going to focus on making this year, my year. Goodbye 2012…and hello 2013… let’s do this thing!

xoxo
❤ Melinda Sue

Happy New Year Everyone!