A little about life…

9 Jan

So I know I was going to keep this to what makes me smile and bucket lists and all my list making.. trust me I’m working on it, it seems like there are never enough hours in a day anymore to accomplish much more then sleeping, working, eating and working out.. I tell ya!

But in the midst of all of my sleeping..eating..working out.. etc.. I have finally accepted that there are some things in life you truly can’t change. I don’t really want to get into the details because honestly… it is something I need to let go of, but just know for anyone who happens to read this, if you are in any type of a relationship even a friendship and you wake up one day and you feel like its just too much to handle.. truth is, it is. When that happens the best advice I have is to distance yourself from it. I know everyone says fight harder for something that you want, but honestly.. there is a point where you can’t be the only one feeling like you’re fighting something and there has to be something out there that will make you happier in the end. Keep looking and keep your head up.. I’m a firm believer that you can find good things… I’m still trying myself.. so look with me.

Short list of what I’m looking for?
-my own fairy tale… that right guy..
-a better job
-happier and healthier choices

I was talking to a friend, who remembers Dave?, yesterday because I was pretty down and out about everything in my life.. the thing is, he said the most amazing thing to me that anyone has ever said and he said it so easily that it seemed like he wasn’t lying to make me feel better.. I should look through my texts and quote his pep talk and I think I might just do that..

it shouldn’t bother you to feel like you don’t fit in, why put yourself in a position that you don’t want to be in…you dont have to change for others, never change who you are, you are perfect just the way you are and never let anyone tell you any different… yo don’t do things because you have to, you do them becuase you want to and they make you happy and you have to remember how perfect you are and not let anyone try to change what they dont like thats their problem not yours.

That might not mean a lot to everyone but at that moment in time those few texts meant the entire world to me.. I went on to tell him that I needed a hug and and he told me that could be arranged.. it was probably too bold of me but it seems like it might have worked, he then told me  hes free this weekend after getting out of work at 6 on Saturday.. so I might hit him up and see if he’s up for a movie and a little cuddling, I could really use that hug right about now.

For anyone having a bad day.. please smile.. but never ask if it can get worse.. because it can.. trust me!


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